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Thank u, next

All I can say about 2018 is ‘thank you, next’. I literally spent the night of NYE at home, being super lazy around the house and not a care in the world that I was asleep before 10pm. #goals

This year is going to be the year I quite literally shake the ground from under me. I mean, why do people hate so much on new year resolutions? If someone wants to better themselves isn’t that a good thing?

In 2017, I was so incredibly dumb and I definitely paid the price for it last year. But lessons have been learnt and mistakes won’t be repeated. So I’m using the next couple of days to decide what no longer feeds my soul and let it go. No. 1) Officially letting go of drama and toxic negativity and filling those empty spaces with new beginnings and healthy energy.

Because I don’t know about you but just this period between 25 and 30 has me so caught up. They’ve been the most anxiety driven years of my life. Obviously not speaking for the next two years but so far I’ve seriously spent so much of my time in a panic bubble. I worry about my future, my goals, a partner, success, a house, kids, finances, my parents getting old, my health, my friends health, my alarm going off, the fine lines under my eyes. It’s not so much about what people think of me anymore – it’s so much more than that. And It’s so easy to fall into a state of depression and anxiety when your mind is constantly burdened with worry about things that are out of your control in the present moment.

But I’ve decided 2019 is my year.

I’ve been a dumb, sad bitch – honestly. And when I list off all the things my life can do without, it makes me wonder how I ever functioned with them in it.

Letting go of the following in 2019:

– Trying to please everyone

– Sacrificing my happiness for others – like all the time though

– Self doubt

– Caring what others think

– Living in the past

– Toxic people

– Negative self talk

– Bad sleeping patterns

– Thinking I’m not enough

– Comparing myself to others appearance or success

– Fearing change

I could build a longer resolutions list but we would be here all day. I could add a list of all the physical changes I would love to make, all the wardrobe and styling changes, the home decor changes and at the end, write how I refuse to do anything other than my very best in whatever studies or work 2019 brings me. But that’s all irrelevant to this post- my goal this year is to fall back in love with myself, in love with the world and life again. I feel like this list is almost essential in playing a role in that.

So with that being said…..

We hope the next 12 months for you are full and you never feel empty inside. We hope good things happen for you and life is never dull or stale.

We hope you find the courage to make every day mean something. We hope you remember that even if you’re not perfect it doesn’t mean you’re not important.

We hope your year has begun on a good note and you are feeling loved.

Happy 2019 ❤️

G.S & Ef xx